Argggggghhh

[eggchan]

なぜ私は日本人と話すと落ちつけないの？？

悔しい！！

、、、何か、、、日本語のレッスンにいて、ハイチの地震のためにarashi_onがお金を集めてるというイベントを説明していみたけど、ゴチャゴチャになって凄い恥ずかしかった。後、レッスンから戻ってきて頭で完璧に言いたいことを言った。もう！！

何か間違うのがものすごい怖がるかもしれないから、普通に話せない。どうやってこの不安を克服すればいいの？？なぜちゃんと日本語で話せなくてもお金を払うの？

I am so frustrated with myself. Ugh.

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[atrandum.livejournal.com]

one time, i lead my friends off the train and out the wrong exit. since i was the only one who could "speak" japanese, i tried to explain to the station guard to let us back in since we didn't mean to exit. but i couldn't get the correct vocab (like ticket station, er, input output, errrrr), and eventually the (stupid) station guard just cut me off and yelled "mou wakaran!" and walked off. i was UBER pissed and utterly humiliated and embarrassed and all those disgusting feelings because i couldn't even take my friends around or explain such a simple situation. so i decided to study abroad in japan the next year. then i went again this past summer and when i had to lead all my american buds around the train station, i was proud of myself that i could ask for the right directions and not be afraid to talk to any station guard and lead everyone the right way lolz. i showed them! baha.

so yeah, i've been there done that many a times haha. still, i've come to the conclusion that even though i've been studying japanese for 10 years, i'll still make the rookiest mistakes because hey! we don't live in japan, we're not surrounded by japanese, we don't need perfect japanese to survive here in the states. so don't beat yourself up over it because it's only natural. what you can do is learn from your mistakes and the next time you have to talk, you show them how you're better than you were before <33